Barbeque

Right before I graduated college I was introduced to an awesome band by a hippy friend of mine. They are called Animal Liberation Orchestra. I have no idea why they are called this and I never researched it, I just found myself drawn in by a song they have called, "Barbeque". SUCH a great song. It's about realizing that dreaming does not equal living your dream and it's okay to destroy old dreams, dream new dreams, and not let life get you down with it's winding roads and detours--that's all part of it! The reason I'm telling this paragraph long story in the beginning of an entry: this song is exactly what I'm learning now.

Life can seem really hard and ridiculous sometimes and other times it seems so ridiculously easy. I'm in the seemingly hard and ridiculous stage at the moment. I foolishly thought it would be easy to transition back into American life since I had transitioned into Asian life...and forgot how difficult THAT was. Moving back to your home country and realizing your worth (as far as human capital goes) has drastically dropped since you last resided there is really depressing. I've been much too slowly realizing that it is time to re-evaluate where I see myself in five years and how I can aggressively work my way into that position. Which means I need to barbeque those old dreams an dream up some new dreams!

I also need to figure out how to resize my photo so you don't have to scroll down to see my entries.

...do I live??

Based on my lack of activity, I don't live at all! I've been dormant for months but lately I've been feeling that I should start this blog back up. Although, after looking at it, I think I need to re-think the design and make it more interesting. Even if this is just a place to write about life I want it to be fun to read and look at (like life itself)!

To get this blog up to speed on life lately all I can really say is I have been going through an intense series of pros and cons. Trying to realize the balance in everyday life. Any situation will bring pros and cons, my job in life lately has been realizing this and searching for the opportunities.

I'm adjusting to small town American life and I can't say it's for me but my journey has just begun! I still dream of earthquakes sometimes but the dreams are rare now and I'm not anxious. *sigh of relief*

SO...on a happier note, some things I have discovered/re-discovered....

Ever since I stopped biting my nails two years ago I have never left them unpolished/done. I

FINALLY picked up some of Sally Hansen Salon Effects nail color. It is so easy to use and gives your nails a design you would otherwise not be able to do in the amount of time it takes to stick these on! I think it's fun. Definitely worth a try.

They come in patterns like what you see on the left but you can also get solid colors. I was afraid they would peel off or chip quickly but as far as I can tell, they work just like nail polish and you remove them with nail polish remover. They're a fun alternative to nail polish and I can do patterns!

I found my strengths finder book! I finally got to unpack all the boxes I packed up so I could move to Asia and I found this little gem with my top five strengths stuck to the cover. :) VERY fun to look back and re-read this book. I originally got this book after feeling a bit lost after graduating University. I think it actually helped me see myself and realize what my strengths were good for. In any case, it's fun to read and realize how to use whatever strengths come out on top.

Even if small town life isn't for me, I know I can learn a lot here and hopefully keep up with this blog...for once. Even if no one reads this I do enjoy looking back on it and seeing how I've grown. 2012 will be an exciting year!